Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Poetry: So Hard to Stay in Control

Feeling closed in, like the
Walls are closing on you
Disturbs me.

You need to
Get away
Somewhere
Somehow,
You feel like a
Trapped animal.

Can’t you
Cope anymore?
Do you have a
Choice?
I think No.

You have to
Cope up with the
Situation and
Circumstances.

You want to
Get away for a
Break,
Clear your
Head and
Get back to
Normal
If you can.

You keep getting a
Feeling of
Absolute
Panic,
So hard to
Stay in control.
You just
Really
Need a
Break.

If I Get a Few Days Peace

Trust me
I need it.

You don’t know
Things have made
Life so difficult lately.
Everyday
Everyone
Keep telling me
I should get away.
I am at my
Lowest point.
I have nothing to
Hide
But it is so
Intimidating.

Don’t be
Afraid
I will not
Miss out anything.
But things are
Driving me
Insane.
I am sorry to
Offload.
I am so on
Edge
Lately.

Just curious
If I get a few days
Peace?

Depression is a Deep Dark place

Depression is a
Deep
Dark place.
So much
Sorrow and
Hardship to face.

The harder
You try to climb
That wall
It feels like
Further and further.
You fall
To try and
Recovery is such a
Fight.
Always searching for a
Guiding light.

A ray of hope
A word of care
A special friend is
Always there
To make it out.
Will take some time but
With your help
I will make the
Climb.

Unrivalled Friendship

You are glad to be my
Friend.
You could not think of
Better people to be
Friends with.

You keep on trying new
Experiments and to make them
Work, to make me
Smile.

It is always good to keep
Learning
Even when confused
Or
Playful.
You are happy.
How can you not
Cheer up when you are talking to me -
Your best friend.

Your thoughts keep my
Brain active and make me
Relaxing

Sometimes You Are Pushed Back

Waited for years to have
Recovery.

Had to take it
Slowly and do lot of
Self healing.

Somehow I feel these
Subtractions and additions are
Part of
Life.

I am not too fast on
Helping myself
I know, but I never liked to play
Games and tricks with others.

Sometimes you are pushed back by
All the people around…

Must be nearly time for me
To finish all pains and
Start afresh…

Never Felt Pain Like That

Well and truly


You can no longer hurt me, and I am in a

much


Better place now.


So cheer up as I am

Out of that now.


I was kneeling down cleaning out my

Past memories and

Twisted the

Wrong way.


Never felt pain like that…

All is Over Now

I care too much what
People think of me
You were good at making me
Feel hopeless at
Everything
Everyday
I know better than that but
Sometimes
I slip into
Bad habits

Why sometimes you feel
Happy to make me feel
Hopeless
I fail to understand
To shadow your own
Mistakes or faults
You tend to make me feel
Guilty out of nothing
All is over now…

Falling to Pieces

Why are you
Falling to pieces
What is disturbing you so much
Inside
That you are
Falling to pieces

Why your world feels like it is
Falling apart
Why you cry at time
Why cant you sleep
Why it is so hard to
Put on a happy brave face

Why are you under
So much pressure
So much stress these
Last few months

Why you think it has become
More than you can
Deal with
Why are you
Falling to pieces

Deceptions make you Unrealistic Illusioned and Dead

Deceptions are long term
Deficits and keep
Haunting throughout
Life

Deceptions debar you from
Success
True Love and
Happiness in
Life

Deceptions might go along well with
Achievements and attainments
But not
Sustenance

Deceptions keep you
Falling short of
Finding
True love

Deceptions make you
Unrealistic
Illusioned and
Dead

Eclipse: My World Is Not Different From Yours

When I overlap you, it is
Solar Eclipse
When you overlap me, it is
Lunar Eclipse

My world is not
Different from yours
Your world is not
Different from mine

When you are
Still
I revolve around
You

When I am
Still
You revolve around
Me

The times when we both
Revolve
We take care
To revolve opposite, to
Meet at least once
In every
Round

The times when we both are
Still
We take care
To be at the same
Point of
Life

Loneliness: When I feel so Lonely

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When I feel so
Lonely
I make sure
To call you,
Cry as much as I want to
And then
Get going

When I feel lonely
I seek no shoulder,
But yours
To rest on for a while
And then
Get going

I don’t mind
Feeling
Lonely,
As long as
You are there
For me

Your thoughts
Fill the entire gap
We have between us

Your feelings
about me
Act as a strong
Bridge between the
Two of us.

I Feel You All The Time

I feel you
I get a smell of you
All the time
Because
You know
I love you

I feel you
I get a smell of you
All the time
Even if you are
Not around
Because
You know
I love you

I feel you
I get a smell of you
All the time
Because
We share the same
Air

I feel you
I get a smell of you
All the time
Because
Even if you are not in
Sight
You are in
My mind

I feel you
I get a smell of you
All the time
Because
No feeling and
No smell is
Better than this

Jittery

You keep claiming
Doing big things

You keep talking
Big

But where is the hitch
Of doing it

I see you
Jittery
Most of the
Time

Why there is a
Difference
In your
Presumptions
And
What you do in
Real

Somewhere in The Dark

Somewhere in the dark
I decided
To try my luck

Somewhere in the dark
I decided to shoot a bullet at random
From my pistol
In the wall facing me

Somewhere in the dark
I fired a bullet
And in the sparkly light of the bullet
I saw you standing in front of me
Against the wall

Somewhere in the dark
I got the shock of my life
As I saw the bullet
Approaching your stomach

Somewhere in the dark
I noticed you picking
A steel disc from the side table
In a split of the moment
To safeguard yourself

Somewhere in the dark
The bullet hit the heavy steel disk
In your hands
And bounced back
Exactly
In my direction

Somewhere in the dark
The bullet hit my chest
Instantly

Somewhere in the dark
I decided to try my luck

Somewhere in the dark
I got a shock of my life of losing you

Somewhere in the dark
In a spur of safeguarding yourself
You changed the direction of the bullet

Somewhere in the dark
The same bullet shot by me
Killed myself

This is luck!
Or merely
A coincidence!!