Poetry: So Hard to Stay in Control

Feeling closed in, like the

Walls are closing on you

Disturbs me.

You need to

Get away

Somewhere

Somehow,

You feel like a

Trapped animal.

Can’t you

Cope anymore?

Do you have a

Choice?

I think No.

You have to

Cope up with the

Situation and

Circumstances.

You want to

Get away for a

Break,

Clear your

Head and

Get back to

Normal

If you can.

You keep getting a

Feeling of

Absolute

Panic,

So hard to

Stay in control.

You just

Really

Need a

Break.

If I Get a Few Days Peace

Trust me

I need it.

You don’t know

Things have made

Life so difficult lately.

Everyday

Everyone

Keep telling me

I should get away.

I am at my

Lowest point.

I have nothing to

Hide

But it is so

Intimidating.

Don’t be

Afraid

I will not

Miss out anything.

But things are

Driving me

Insane.

I am sorry to

Offload.

I am so on

Edge

Lately.

Just curious

If I get a few days

Peace?

Depression is a Deep Dark place

Depression is a

Deep

Dark place.

So much

Sorrow and

Hardship to face.

The harder

You try to climb

That wall

It feels like

Further and further.

You fall

To try and

Recovery is such a

Fight.
Always searching for a

Guiding light.

A ray of hope

A word of care

A special friend is

Always there

To make it out.

Will take some time but

With your help

I will make the

Climb.

Unrivalled Friendship

You are glad to be my

Friend.

You could not think of

Better people to be

Friends with.

You keep on trying new

Experiments and to make them

Work, to make me

Smile.

It is always good to keep

Learning

Even when confused

Or

Playful.

You are happy.

How can you not

Cheer up when you are talking to me -

Your best friend.

Your thoughts keep my

Brain active and make me

Relaxing

Sometimes You Are Pushed Back

Waited for years to have

Recovery.

Had to take it

Slowly and do lot of

Self healing.

Somehow I feel these

Subtractions and additions are

Part of

Life.

I am not too fast on

Helping myself

I know, but I never liked to play

Games and tricks with others.

Sometimes you are pushed back by

All the people around…

Must be nearly time for me

To finish all pains and

Start afresh…

Never Felt Pain Like That

Well and truly

You can no longer hurt me, and I am in a

much

Better place now.

So cheer up as I am

Out of that now.

I was kneeling down cleaning out my

Past memories and

Twisted the

Wrong way.

Never felt pain like that…

All is Over Now

I care too much what

People think of me

You were good at making me

Feel hopeless at

Everything

Everyday

I know better than that but

Sometimes

I slip into

Bad habits

Why sometimes you feel

Happy to make me feel

Hopeless

I fail to understand

To shadow your own

Mistakes or faults

You tend to make me feel

Guilty out of nothing

All is over now…

Falling to Pieces

Why are you

Falling to pieces

What is disturbing you so much

Inside

That you are

Falling to pieces

Why your world feels like it is

Falling apart

Why you cry at time

Why cant you sleep

Why it is so hard to

Put on a happy brave face

Why are you under

So much pressure

So much stress these

Last few months

Why you think it has become

More than you can

Deal with

Why are you

Falling to pieces

Deceptions make you Unrealistic Illusioned and Dead

Deceptions are long term

Deficits and keep

Haunting throughout

Life

Deceptions debar you from

Success

True Love and

Happiness in

Life

Deceptions might go along well with

Achievements and attainments

But not

Sustenance

Deceptions keep you

Falling short of

Finding

True love

Deceptions make you

Unrealistic

Illusioned and

Dead

Eclipse: My World Is Not Different From Yours

When I overlap you, it is

Solar Eclipse

When you overlap me, it is

Lunar Eclipse

My world is not

Different from yours

Your world is not

Different from mine

When you are

Still

I revolve around

You

When I am

Still

You revolve around

Me

The times when we both

Revolve

We take care

To revolve opposite, to

Meet at least once

In every

Round

The times when we both are

Still

We take care

To be at the same

Point of

Life

Loneliness: When I feel so Lonely

When I feel so

Lonely

I make sure

To call you,

Cry as much as I want to

And then

Get going

When I feel lonely

I seek no shoulder,

But yours

To rest on for a while

And then

Get going

I don’t mind

Feeling

Lonely,

As long as

You are there

For me

Your thoughts

Fill the entire gap

We have between us

Your feelings

about me

Act as a strong

Bridge between the

Two of us.

I Feel You All The Time

I feel you

I get a smell of you

All the time

Because

You know

I love you

I feel you

I get a smell of you

All the time

Even if you are

Not around

Because

You know

I love you

I feel you

I get a smell of you

All the time

Because

We share the same

Air

I feel you

I get a smell of you

All the time

Because

Even if you are not in

Sight

You are in

My mind

I feel you

I get a smell of you

All the time

Because

No feeling and

No smell is

Better than this

Jittery

You keep claiming

Doing big things

You keep talking

Big

But where is the hitch

Of doing it

I see you

Jittery

Most of the

Time

Why there is a

Difference

In your

Presumptions

And

What you do in

Real

Somewhere in The Dark

Somewhere in the dark

I decided

To try my luck

Somewhere in the dark

I decided to shoot a bullet at random

From my pistol

In the wall facing me

Somewhere in the dark

I fired a bullet

And in the sparkly light of the bullet

I saw you standing in front of me

Against the wall

Somewhere in the dark

I got the shock of my life

As I saw the bullet

Approaching your stomach

Somewhere in the dark

I noticed you picking

A steel disc from the side table

In a split of the moment

To safeguard yourself

Somewhere in the dark

The bullet hit the heavy steel disk

In your hands

And bounced back

Exactly

In my direction

Somewhere in the dark

The bullet hit my chest

Instantly

Somewhere in the dark

I decided to try my luck

Somewhere in the dark

I got a shock of my life of losing you

Somewhere in the dark

In a spur of safeguarding yourself

You changed the direction of the bullet

Somewhere in the dark

The same bullet shot by me

Killed myself

This is luck!

Or merely

A coincidence!!